Michigan

I wanted to make sure everyone in the family that could have seen this blog already knew what was going on before I wrote it. My grandmother is very ill with lung cancer and it moved from her left lung to her right lung and now is attached to her heart. She doesn't have much time left and I'm hoping both my sister and I get to visit with her and say our goodbye's before she passes on. I'm going up on the 19th of this month and Regina is going up on the weekend after that one. I'm really going to miss her; she and I have always been close. We've talked at least once a week since I was 15 years old and I used to spend a few week every summer with my sister and mother before then. My grandmother knows everything about me and everything I've ever done, good and bad. The last time I was up there was right after my sister's wedding reception in 2007.
The other part about this that is concerning is that my mother is disabled and living with both of her parents. My grandfather is losing track of time, forgetting whether he took his insulin and sometimes double dosing on it, and is becoming very depressed with my grandmother's condition. He just wants to lay in bed all day. I'm fearful that both of my grandparents on my mother's side will pass on this year. My mother is schizophrenic and is wonderful when she's on her meds but if she's off of them is horrible. In addition, she is diabetic with a thyroid condition combined with back and hip problems she's had most of her life. She has no drivers license. I don't know what she's going to do when they both pass on. She definitely can't drive herself around to appointment, grocery shop alone, or push a vacuum. I can't live with her and help her because we are great separated but together in the same house, there are no boundaries. It may be selfish, but I just can't stand to live with my mother. Half the time she treats me as an adult, but it's the other half that bothers me.